Sometimes I just don’t feel like praying or spending any time reading the Bible. Does this mean there is something wrong with my faith? Am I actually a Christian? Is something wrong with me?
I imagine any follower of Jesus has had a day, week or month(s) when the above paragraph described his or her walk with Christ. We don’t always feel like exercising the disciplines of the faith by which we often engage God. There is a great deal of guilt and doubt that can worm its way into our life when going through these periods. Many of us wonder what it means when we go through such a time? I have counseled a lot of Christians and it seems most if not all of us have had them. As to the question of guilt, we aren’t reject it!. After all, we are saved by grace and should walk or live our life in it as well.
But what does it mean when we don’t feel like praying or reading the Word of God? I suppose it means we are at an emotional low in our relationship with God. These times are much like those emotional lows we experience in our relationship with our spouse or friends. There are times I don’t much feel like talking to my wife but I still love her. There are weeks when the relationship with my wife lacks the emotional “pizazz” it has had in the past. But I still love her the same, am still committed to her and am just as passionate for her as I have ever been. The fact is simple: We are emotional creatures and our emotions are sometimes a roller-coaster due to circumstances beyond our control.
SOONER OR LATER IT HITS ALL OF US…
There are a lot of depressed people who, right at this very moment, don’t feel like talking to anyone much less God. Perhaps they are going through a time of grief or loss and it has clouded every relationship in their life. This doesn’t mean they have ceased to love anyone and everyone in their life. They just don’t feel like investing in the relationship emotionally.
There are a lot of teachers and preachers who tell us it is in these uninspired moments that we have our greatest opportunity to demonstrate love because in such instances the love expressed is sacrificial.
SO WHAT NOW…
If you are going through a time when you don’t fell like loving God by engaging in relationship with Him through prayer, tell Him! Tell God you love Him but don’t feel like talking right now. Then shut up and watch what He does. Tell Him the relationship is on His shoulders and unless He does something to intervene you are helpless to change the way you feel and its paralyzing affect on your relationship with Him. In short, trust God to carry the relationship.
If you think about it God has always carried your relationship with Him. If He had not chosen to leave heaven and save you then there would be no relationship at all. So in your moment of despair just lean on Him again and tell Him what Brother Lawrence prayed almost 700 years ago, “Unless you do something I will always be the same.” When we pray such prayers it doesn’t take long for God to respond; He enjoys our moment of surrender and trust…moments which actually demonstrate genuine love much more than any spiritual discipline ever could.
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